Another Update.....

"He reveals mysteries from the darkness

And brings the deep darkness into light."

Job 12:22

 

Awhile back, I used this verse in a post.  This morning in my reading, I came across it again.   It's interesting to me that it falls in the midst of a bunch of verses which are rather on the negative side about God's activity among men (you might want to read Job 12 to get what I mean).  There in the middle of them is this very bright, illuminating verse.  I like that.  Kinda like life sometimes.

My doctor visit on Friday was good on a number of fronts.

 

First, my symptoms and situation are a puzzlement to Dr. Matt.  When he prayed for me, he also prayed for wisdom for himself as he tries to figure out what's going on.  I love that.

Second, he had some ideas about how to reduce the nausea.  Eliminate some supplements, add others, change my diet.  

Third, an herbal approach, which I have been pursuing, sits well with him.

Since the change in supplements beginning yesterday, I have had two much better days.  Much less nausea and that is encouraging.  I also slept really well last night, the first time in a couple of weeks.  Simple blessings.

I also wanted to give you a brief update on Daniel and his family since the accident in July.

It has been a long haul for them.  Daniel lost his job due to inability to work, was pretty non-functional most of the time and walked like an old man.  In the process of going to chiropractors, massage therapists, physical therapists and neurosurgeon specialists, he gathered a lot of information about healing.  About a month or so ago, he came across a book by Pete Egoscue called "Pain Free."  He started doing the exercises for lower back and within hours he was doing better.  Progressively over the following few days, he improved amazingly.  He also discovered Kettlebell training, and is now swinging a 35 pound kettlebell with ease, is able to wrestle with his brother and son, and is walking normally again. Praise God!

Sarah delivered their daughter, Ava, on October 17th and will now be able to have MRI testing done to determine the state of her back. 

The thing that is so encouraging to me, beside the fact that Daniel is getting well,  is that if these exercises have had such a dramatic impact on him, I feel there is hope for me, as well.  I am in the process of learning the Egoscue Method, and will keep you posted.

Thank you for your continued prayers.  It has been a rugged few weeks, and it is awesome to have had some relief in these past 2 days.

Bless you, each one.

Update

Shall I take from Your hand Your blessings
Yet not welcome any pain?
Shall I thank You for days of sunshine
Yet grumble in days of rain?
Shall I love You in times of plenty
Then leave You in days of drought?
Shall I trust when I reap a harvest
But when winter winds blow, then doubt?

Oh let Your will be done in me
In Your love I will abide.
Oh I long for nothing else as long
As You are glorified.

Are You good only when I prosper
And true only when I’m filled?
Are You King only when I’m carefree
And God only when I’m well?
You are good when I’m poor and needy.
You are true when I’m parched and dry.
You still reign in the deepest valley.
You’re still God in the darkest night.

So quiet my restless heart,

Quiet my restless heart.

Quiet my restless heart in You. 

As Long as You are Glorified
From the "Come Weary Saints" album

He is God over all.  All things.  All the time.  I have to work at remembering this sometimes.  I have to work at looking up.  Now is one of those times.

In the past few weeks, my stomach issues have intensified.  I am weary of trying to figure it out.  Nothing seems to be consistent other than just being nauseated most of the time and experiencing dizziness and foggy thinking after eating.  Today is particularly difficult.  I have an appointment with my naturopath tomorrow.  I haven't seen him for quite awhile.  Please pray with us that he will be able to figure out something.  We are hoping for a breakthrough.

Thank you for praying with us.  

Prayer Update 9

Dear Ones,

I have been feeling the need to return to my old blog and chronicle my days there again.  I wanted to let you know that I will be focusing my writing in that location and welcome you to join me there if you so desire.  I will come over here and post prayer requests as they arise, but will primarily be there on a day-to-day basis.

This is my post for today: Paradigm Shift

Thank you for your amazing commitment to praying for us through these difficult months.  We are not through them yet, certainly, and covet your continued prayers for us.

How you can pray:

~ Continued revelation on how to treat my issues.

~ My need to slow down, dial back and learn to "be" rather than always "do."

~ Dale would like me to have an MRI to rule out any other "unknowns" that might be revealed by that procedure.  I will be talking to my PCP soon.

Prayer Update 8

"Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden,

and I will give you rest."

Matthew 11:28

"Do you not know? Have you not heard?

The Everlasting God, the LORD,

the Creator of the ends of the earth

Does not become weary or tired." 

Isaiah 40:28

I'm liking the contrast in these verses......the weary and tired are asked to "come unto Me" for rest, to Him who does not become weary or tired.

I'm pretty weary and tired.  I need rest.  And it is in Him.  I'm trying to find my way there.

One of the things I'm pondering is what I feel is a dichotomy in how I look at, pray about, and emotionally handle my infirmity.  On one hand, Scripture commands that we pray for healing in a number of ways, doing spiritual battle over the sick and infirm, calling for the elders, etc.  On the other, He says, "My grace is sufficient."  How am I to know in which situation I am?  Do I keep fighting, or do I, in my weariness, accept that this could be my life now, and quit fighting?  I'm tired.  I desire rest and peace.

There are many things that contribute to my questioning.

First, I don't want to be sick.  I want to be well, able to do the simple things that constitute my days.  I'd like to be able to take my grandkids to the park and really play.  Or take hikes and play frisbee with my kids.  So on that level, I want to fight to be well.

But, second, I don't want to be found fighting against my God, if this is in His plan for conforming me to the image of His Son.  I don't want to be standing in His way as He perfects me.

Third, if I am to keep fighting, how do I go about that? There are multiple facets to that:

1. The financial angle.  We have run through thousands of dollars trying to find causes and treat them.  We have been successful on some levels, most notably identifying the mold problem (multiple chemical sensitivity) and getting out of that environment.  And also in determining that many of my issues lie in endocrine insufficiency.  However, in order to keep up doctor visits and treatment, we have to cover those costs outside of insurance.  It's overwhelming.

2. Do we keep looking for other causes via testing through traditional medicine that are covered by insurance, or do we continue to wait it out? My symptoms are many and varied.  On top of that, they come and go, they morph, new ones continually crop up, and there often seems to be no rhyme or reason to them.  I try new supplements and treatments and often they help.  Other times they cause more difficulties.  Are the difficulties part of healing?  For weeks, my stomach can be going along fine, and then I am beset with nausea again accompanied by the old "I'm being poisoned" feeling, and I'm back to trying to find a cause.  What did I eat?  What did I do differently today?  Yesterday?  Same kind of thing with my back.  Most recently, I am having multiple joint pain, especially in my knee, that makes it hard to do a lot of very simple things.  Where is that coming from?  Is it part of detox and something I need to wait out?  How do we find out?

Fourth, I'm just tired.  Tired of trying to figure things out.  Tired from the drain on my body.  Tired of fighting.

I want to be handling this season of my life in the Lord.  What does He want of me?  How would He have me respond?  What is His purpose?  And there are days and days when I just don't have a clue.

I so appreciate your prayers for me.  For us.  We are greatly blessed.

How you can pray for us:
~ Eyes to see and ears to hear His plan and voice.

~ A heart to understand His purposes and what He wants of me.

~ A way forward if He wants us to continue to pursue medical evaluation and treatment in any vein, traditional and/or natural.

Prayer Update 7

"He reveals mysteries from the darkness

And brings the deep darkness into light."

Job 12:22

I was looking for something God's Word had to say about mysteries tonight, because that's where I am right now.  All this health stuff is as good as a mystery.  I was taken by this verse....  "He reveals mysteries from the darkness and brings the deep darkness into light."

Well, inside my body -- everyone's body -- is dark.  Deep darkness, actually, because no light can shine very far inside my skin.  Kinda like a deep cave when the lights are turned out.  And what is going on inside of me is not readily apparent.  To me, a mystery.  There is comfort here, because Job says that God reveals mysteries from the darkness and brings the deep darkness into light.  That's what I so desire right now.  The mystery of what is going on inside my body to be revealed in His light.

Yesterday I was able to talk with my ND and we worked through the current symptoms of new and unexplained back & abdominal pain, increasing joint pain and my inability to gain weight.  He had some ideas about what might be going on and possibilities for tackling the issues.

Most pressing is this back pain right now.  Because of the nature of it, he thought it might be disk related and recommended that I be checked by x-ray to either confirm or eliminate that possibility.  This morning was a difficult one, and I went to Urgent Care to have that imaging done.  The results show no significant disk issues.  The radiologist will be reading the films also, and I should hear tomorrow if there is any nuance that the doctor missed.  According to labs, there is no infection present, nor does there seem to be any issue with bladder or kidneys.  So.  Mystery.

Because there is abdominal pain associated with the back pain, I've begun to wonder if there isn't more intestinal stuff going on rather than structural.

We talked about my joint pain probably being detox-related and some treatment options for that, as well as possibilities for why I still can't gain weight, and some treatment options there, too.  I'm working to effect those additions as quickly as possible.

Last night, Jessie gathered some precious saints who came and prayed over me.  It was a rich time of sharing in Scripture, prayer and song.  One of the things that stood out to me, perhaps to many of us, is that God's priorities are not always ours.  His priority is always the inner man, the inner fruit, and if He says 'no' to a request of mine, it's because He wants to focus on my inner man.  My relationship with Him.  So, at this point, that is my assumption in this journey on which I find myself.  He is working on my inner man, and the outer is going through some tough stuff.  Mysterious stuff, for which medicine is having a hard time finding cause.

That is my update for now.  My heart is desiring a revelation of the mysteries of what is wrong in my body, whether they be rooted in physical, emotional and/or spiritual causes.  I would so appreciate you joining in praying with us in that regard, but more than that, that His work in me would be fruitful.  That His reasons for saying 'no' right now to healing would not be fruitless in my life.  That His work would be accomplished, and that I won't stand in the way.  He has promised to complete the work He has begun and conform me to the image of His Son, and I don't want to be a hindrance, you know?

Thank you for praying with us, still.  :-)  You are all precious to me.

How you can pray:

~ Revelation of the mysteries of my illness, in His timing.

~ That His priorities will be accomplished, in spite of me, if necessary.

Prayer Update 6

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

Hebrews 13:8

Comfort words for me in this time where change is the watchword.  Where things don't have any constancy.

The past week has been an example of the wild fluctuations in how I've been feeling.  Last Monday was an awesome day.  I felt better than I have in a very long time.  Tuesday started a downhill run that is still in process. I keep thinking I'm on an upswing, and then really difficult stretches jump out at me.

Yesterday I started having back pain unlike any I've ever had.  A deep breath will instigate it and it extends from my lower back around my sides.  I don't have a clue as to the source.  I am not holding adjustments for any length of time and although I went again today to get put back "in," it is not helping the pain.  I also have an increasing joint pain issue, primarily in my knees and shoulders. 

My gut has been "off" for a couple of days and it may be that there is inflammation that is contributing to my back issue.  It kinda feels that way, but I have no idea, really.  The joint pain could be the result of detoxification, but again, I really don't know.

I have a note in to my ND asking about these things and hope to hear from him when he has a chance.

I would so appreciate prayer that there will be some light shed on the current issues as well as why there are such dramatic ups and downs in how I feel.  And I would really like to avoid having to go to a doctor here, or worse (in my thinking) to the hospital.

On a positive note, Dale found a small pickup that is working so well for him.  It was a God-thing finding it and He has blessed us greatly.  Thank you for your prayers for this over the past months!

And a bright spot today are these sweet pansies

my dear husband brought to me.

How you can pray:

~ Light shed on the cause of these dramatic ups and downs and the current back and joint pain.

~ That I won't have to go to a local doctor or the hospital.

~ That my ND would be able to get back to me soon.

~ Perseverance and joy in trials.

Thank you so much for praying.  We are very grateful.

Prayer Update 5

"To everything there is a season,

and a time to every purpose under heaven...."

Ecclesiastes 3:1

I am hanging onto the truth of this passage right now.  And I'm grateful for His peace and assurance that it IS true.

On Thursday, I tendered my resignation at the Post Office.  It was hard and tearful, but I know it was the right thing to do.  The relief of stress is so very apparent.  Until I made the decision, I didn't realize how much it was affecting me every day.  So much of my energy was focused on trying to be ready to work on Saturdays, and in the past month I have failed to be able to work even one of them.  It was taking a toll on me at a level of which I just wasn't aware.  So, while it's hard, I am glad that the result is very noticeably less stress in the mix.  So, that season of my life is over for now.  If God has another similar position for me in the future, I will rejoice in that, and if not, I will rejoice in whatever He brings my way.

It continues to be wonderful living in our new place.  We are now able to do laundry here and wash everything that smells of mold.  The washer has been going just about non-stop since Thursday.  I'm not sure I've ever been so grateful to do laundry.

There is not much new health-wise at this point.  Still feeling as if I'm on a general upswing being out of the mold and enjoying better digestion, but remaining in the place of neither being able to gain weight nor depend on how my back will be any given day.  I started a new supplement this past week and have had no adverse reactions to this point.  This is one that works at the cellular level in helping with detoxification support and increasing glutathione levels.  Dr. Matt has written a post on his blog about glutathione and you can read it here if you like.  It's amazing to me.  Because of dealing with multiple chemical sensitivities (MCS), the detox issue is big.  So, we'll see over the next months if this helps.  I'll also be starting another supplement this week which is to help with adrenal support.

Thanks for checking in with me here.  I am humbled and blessed by how many of you are praying for us, and am so, so grateful.  Bless each one of you!

How you can pray:

~ That the relief of stress over job-related things continue to have a positive effect in my overall well-being.

~ Weight gain.

~ That the 2 new supplements will do good things both at the cellular level and for my adrenals.

~ Dale still needs a rig.  :-)

Prayer Update 4

 In everything give thanks;

for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

1Thessalonians 5:18

And we know that God causes all things

to work together for good to those who love God,

to those who are called according to His purpose.

Romans 8:28 

 

Today feels like an update day.  It's been a bit of a hard one and these verses are running through my head tonight.

 

Paul says in everything give thanks, and that God causes all things to work together for good. Everything and all things.  Sounds like kinda the same thing.  In the midst of today's challenges, I'm working on giving thanks in everything, and recognizing that God is so totally in charge and does work all things together for good in my life.  Every day.

Since I last posted, there have been quite a few things that have happened.  First, we moved.  Jessie posted about that when we were in the midst.  We've been in the rental house for going on 3 weeks now.  It has been amazing.  As Jessie indicated, when Maggie and I got back from California, it became apparent that I really couldn't live in the old house anymore.  I had detoxed enough from the mold that the reintroduction of it was really bad.  We got back on Friday, and we moved on Monday.  On that Monday morning, my back went out, and I was literally out flat.  Over a few days, I was able to start moving (my body) again and my family and our wonderful friends did the moving of the household.  We have continued to move things over slowly, cleaning everything as we go.  I am really blessed that the treasured family antiques have weathered the move and have cleaned up beautifully, and we've lost only one piece to the mold.  So, so grateful for that.

As far as my health goes, it's still up and down.  Overall, my digestion is doing better most of the time.  I am still challenged in the fight to gain weight.  No real success there.  My back continues to be the biggest challenge as far as being able to function.  After holding my spinal correction for over 2 months, it has started going out regularly.  Between that and the unknown of possible food induced problems, I am finding it difficult to consistently function on any normal level.

This past week, I had a day and a half that were really good.  Monday I felt as good as I've felt in months, Tuesday morning and early afternoon, I felt great.  In talking with some friends Tuesday morning, I expressed as much and explained that I felt as if I were on a general upswing with being out of the mold, digestion better, and then just feeling good that day.  I finished with saying, "I'm not really ready to camp on it yet, though."  I so want to, but the ups and downs are so regular.  That afternoon I had a downturn and am still fighting it today (Friday).

Today I also found out that I will most likely be losing my job at the Post Office.  This is a really hard one.  I have loved the job and have wanted to keep it in the worst way.  But my inability to be consistent in covering my shifts has gone on as long as it can, and, understandably, my boss needs to find someone who can do the job.  This is a two-sided coin for me.  Hard to lose the job on one hand, but the stress of never knowing if I will be in okay shape to work on Saturdays, or any other days she needs me, has been taking its toll on me.  I am coming to the conclusion that this is God's way of removing that stress, which is a relieving thing for me.  Therefore, I am beginning to be able to really say, "Thank You for this.  I know You are working all things for good in my life.  And You will continue to provide for us."  :-)

 

On another front, Dale is enjoying his job with Catholic Community Services.  It continues to be a good fit for him and we're really grateful for that.

 

That's the nutshell version of the past weeks.

Things about which we'd appreciate prayer:

~ Continued progress with finding treatments that will promote healing in my body, especially my back and in gaining weight.

~ We really need another vehicle.  Nothing has presented yet that will work for us.

~ Peace regarding the probable termination of my job.

Thank you for praying for us.  Over and over, I hear of people I don't even know who have been lifting us up.  What blessing.  Thank you, again and again.

An update from Jessie

The continuing saga of the MacInnis family needs a brief update and a lot of prayer.  Thank you all so much for sticking with us through this.

Last week Mom and Maggie were in California for some necessary tying up of Mom's father's estate, and that week of being out of their moldy house made it pretty clear how much the mold is effecting Mom's health.  Through a kind act of God they have found a rental in Chehalis, and they are moving starting today.  This has been a game of hurry up and wait, but now it's time to jump and timing seems to be critical.  Already we've been thrown a curve because Mom woke up this morning with a back worse than it's been in 14 years.  She tried to get in the shower and almost passed out and almost threw up.  The last time it did this was while we were packing to move from California to Missouri.

Which makes me think it is the Enemy trying to run an instant replay.  We covet your prayers through these very stressful days, for clarity and relief from pain for Mom, and peace and relief from stress for the rest of us.  I've never been through a time like these last few weeks.

 

There is a lot more that I'll be posting in the next couple of days, but for now, prayer is the key.  Also, if anyone were interested in providing a dinner for Maggie, Dad and Boomer they would be most grateful.  Taking time out of the work to cook between two incomplete kitchens is a challenge.  Please direct any calls or questions to me.

 

Bless you all,

 

Jessie

Prayer Update 3

"Nevertheless, I am always with you."

Psalm 73:23

“Nevertheless,” -- “nevertheless, since I belong to Christ I am continually with God!”  By this is meant continually upon his mind, He is always thinking of me for my good. Continually before His eye;—the eye of the Lord never sleeps, but is perpetually watching over my welfare. Continually in His hand, so that none shall be able to pluck me thence. Continually on His heart, worn there as a memorial......You always think of me, O God. The heart of Your love continually yearn towards me. You are always making providence work for my good. You have set me as a signet upon Your arm; Your love is strong as death, many waters cannot quench it; neither can the floods drown it. Surprising grace!" C.H. Spurgeon

This is part of my devotional reading from yesterday morning.  And it really ministered to me.  I am learning about His love for me, trying to appropriate what I know in my head and experience it in my heart.  It is amazing to me to see what He is doing in our lives in this challenging time.  Much blessing.

Maggie and I are safely home and it is always so good to get back after a trip and relish time with our family.  Our time in California was very good.  So many blessings, some of which I wrote about last time.

We are poised to start our move to the rental on Monday.  It will be a process over the coming weeks, but we are trying to get set up as much as we can in this next week so we can stay there.  It proved helpful to my overall well-being to be out of our house for the past week, so we are working on getting moved as quickly as we can.  We would really appreciate prayer for that process to go well and smoothly.

Thank you again for your prayers for all of us.  We so greatly appreciate you!

Prayer Requests:

~ Moving process to go smoothly and quickly.

~ Dale still needs a vehicle.

Prayer Update 2

 Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly

beyond all that we ask or think,

according to the power that works within us,
to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus

to all generations forever and ever. Amen.

Ephesians 3:20 & 21

I've read these verses so many times, and have realized their truth on a number of occasions, but yesterday they were made even more real to me than in the past.

Maggie and I are in California to handle some final things regarding my dad and his death in February.  Years ago he had asked that, when the time came, my brother and I scatter his ashes, together with those of our mom, in a couple of special places.  Through a series of events that have been difficult, I thought his ashes had already been scattered, precluding the opportunity to carry out what he had indicated he wanted done.  When we got here, I discovered that this was not the case and that his ashes had been entrusted to me after all.  Through another series of events, I had brought my mom's ashes with us on this trip.  My brother and I had planned to spend the day together up in the mountains in one of the places Dad had wanted their ashes scattered, so we were able to honor his wishes and, in a blessing beyond what I could ask or think, gain some closure over his death.  There is no way I could have orchestrated all that.  I am beyond grateful.

And, in the same vein, yesterday we also committed to a rental home in the Chehalis area which is available to us for a number of months.  It is a very good situation for us and we are so very, very grateful.  We'll be starting the moving process very soon.  Thank you for praying with us about this.  What an amazing "nothing-is-too-difficult-for-Me" God we serve.  Praise Him!

Prayer Update 1

This is the message we have heard from Him

and announce to you,

that God is Light,

and in Him there is no darkness at all.

1John 1:5 

I just wanted to give a quick update and ask for prayer for a couple of things.

The past few days have been pretty difficult with my back and weight loss again.  I had a reaction to something on Tuesday and wasn't able to eat very well for a couple of days.  I'm doing better now, but have some ground to regain.  It seems that my back is at least partly related to my stomach, so it's been one of those weeks.  I went to my back doctor today and I was "out" for the first time in 10 weeks, which is some sort of record for me.  I'm recovering from the adjustment.  So, I would appreciate prayer for the ability to eat well and gain back the weight I lost this past week.

Maggie and I are taking a trip to California starting on Sunday to deliver a car to my brother.  I am looking forward to the trip, even though it'll be tiring.  I'm hoping that being away from the mold issues will be helpful for these days.  We would appreciate prayer for safety going and coming, and for blessing and ministry as we see several dear friends, my brother and my only girl cousin who I haven't seen in many, many years.  I'm so looking forward to seeing her.  I will also be spending some time with an old friend who is involved in Theophostic healing ministry.  Very cool.

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Ability to eat and gain weight, again  :-)

~ Safety on our trip to California

~ Blessed time with friends and family

Thank you!

40 Days of Prayer - Day 40

Great is the LORD, and highly to be praised,

And His greatness is unsearchable.

Psalm 145:3

Wow.  We are at the end of the 40 Days of Prayer, and what comes to mind is this verse.  Great is the LORD!

Once again, I want to go through and highlight His wonderful answers over these past weeks to bring us encouragement and to remind us of His greatness.  All of these have been answered in the affirmative.  Amazing, isn't it?  Our prayers move God on behalf of His loved ones.

So.....going back to the beginning and progressing through today........

~That we'd be able to investigate the gall bladder possibility quickly and effectively.

~That God would reveal to us the root cause(s) of the issues I'm dealing with.

~ That we would be able to discern God's voice in how He wants us to proceed.

~ Looking ahead to Wednesday, that Dale's interview with Catholic Services will go well and that he will get the job.  Soon.

~ Perseverance in adversity and infirmity.  

~ That God would continue to reveal the truth of my health issues and shed light on the paths we are to take in pursuing healing.

~ That the gall bladder test will be definitive (test was negative).

~ Doctor/Nurse conversation later in the week regarding meds/treatment for adrenals and thyroid.

~ I need to be able to give a definitive answer by June 30th as to whether I will be able to work 3 weeks in August.  So I need clarity on that.

~ Accurate results from gall bladder test, and also from blood draws today.

~ This letter and a doctor I can work with, locally or otherwise.  Locally would be so amazing, but maybe it isn't to be.

~ I work my half-day shift tomorrow, and I am looking for His sufficiency in that.

~ This conversation with the ND tomorrow to determine if we feel it would be a good fit to work together on my health issues.

~ It seems to me that it would be good to be able to see the ND very soon, providing he is the one the Lord confirms.

~ Integration of this new information about possible pancreas problems into the big picture. 

~ Wisdom & revelation for the Dr. as he looks at my history and labs, etc. and the clear confirmation, or not, of whether he is the right one.

~ Praise, praise, praise for this amazing answer! (Dr. Matt)

~ An enlightening and productive appointment tomorrow, with the IV therapy making some headway in stabilizing me.

~That the tests would reveal nothing wrong with the baby. (After Daniel's and Sarah's accident)

~ Continued perseverance through the ups and downs of unpredictable days.

~ Continued light to be shone on my endocrine issues, as well as the best treatments and order in which they should be administered.

~ Continued prayer for provision this month before Dale starts getting full paychecks, which will be at the end of the month.

~ Smooth transition with this new med. 

~ Work issues for me are still stressful.  I need to be able to leave all that with the Lord and not dwell on what I can't do and how I can't help right now.  These are lessons in recognizing that I am not sufficient.  He is.

~ I desire continued clarity on treatment options (supplements, meds, etc.), as in what is of most importance and where to put the money we have, and in what order.

~ Continued figuring out of meds and supplements that will work for me in building up my intestinal and endocrine health.

~ Rejoicing in trials and not getting discouraged on difficult days.

~ Jessie's health concerns (from a previous post)

~ Perseverance

~ Effective doctor's appointment on Monday, with clear communication on my part.

~ Clarity in presenting questions to my doctor tomorrow, and helpful & definitive answers.

~ Safety on the crazy I-5 corridor and that we can get there on time.  Last time it was a zoo.

 

I am so grateful for the prayers of all of you through these weeks.  We have truly seen the hand of God orchestrating these amazing answers.  When I think of where we started, walking in the dark as to what my issues are, the discouragement, the seeming hopelessness of dealing with the medical community in a meaningful way, and now realize where we are with a doctor beyond any imaginings, it is just amazing.  The road is still long.  But there is renewed hope and strength in the power of His might, for nothing is too difficult for Him.  Nothing.

I will continue to update the blog through the weeks ahead.  Probably not everyday, but when significant things happen, or needs arise, I will post entries and prayer requests.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for your faithful prayers for us.  We are grateful beyond words.

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ A housing solution that is perfect in God's eyes.

~ A vehicle for Dale.

~ Continued clarity on treatment for me and positive responses by my body to the ones being implemented, and particularly....

~ Weight gain by focusing on gut health and protein supplementation.  The doctor is targeting 105 as a goal for now. (That's about 13 pounds.)

Bless you, each one.

40 Days of Prayer - Day 39

"But as for me, I will watch expectantly for the LORD;

I will wait for the God of my salvation. My God will hear me."

Micah 7:7

My God will hear me. Hear us.  Isn't that amazing?  And He has.  

Answers from yesterday's requests:

Today went well.  First, we made the trip with no incident at all.  We were almost an hour early.  Didn't want to take a chance on being late again.  I-5 was clear sailing all the way there.  THAT is a blessing!

The time with Dr. Matt was very good.  I'm not sure how to express what a blessing this doctor is.  Wow.  He listens well, and answers in humility.  We were able to cover all the questions on my list and I have come away encouraged.  The aspect of trying to determine what is most important in treatment options, and then carry them out in a way we can financially sustain, was appreciated and understood by him and we worked on a plan to effect the things he determines are most important.  I so appreciate that.  This healing process is going to take awhile, and I have come to a certain peace with that, and now with a better grasp of the "big picture," I feel as if I'm coming at this from a position of strength.  So, we will devote our resources to those things he recommends as most beneficial, and see what the Lord does with it all.

You all have been a huge part of this process and I am so grateful to you for praying with us through this time.  What a blessing.

I think the thing that we most need prayer on at this point is clarity on what to do about our housing situation.  There are many factors that need to be considered, and we are asking God to give a crystal clarity to His answer.  Not to our myriad ideas of possibilities, but HIS answer.  He knows all the facets perfectly and we have only a dim and smoky view from here.

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Clarity in God's answer to our housing situation.

~ Dale's need for a vehicle.

~ That the chosen treatments will be effective in bringing healing to my body.

40 Days of Prayer - Day 38

"You were tired out by the length of your road,

Yet you did not say, 'It is hopeless.'

You found renewed strength,

Therefore you did not faint.

Isaiah 57:10

Look at this verse I found today.  Wow.

I am just so tired.  Weary.  I had a food reaction this afternoon that has wiped me out.  I needed an encouraging word, and here it is.  Isn't it amazing?  I am tired out by the length of this road I'm on, yet I haven't said "It is hopeless."  No, I have hope.  In Him.  His faithfulness.  And I do find renewed strength each day, and I haven't fainted yet.  I love His Word.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with my doctor up north.  I have done a lot of looking at supplements in the different areas where I need support, and have formulated a list of products that are more cost effective than some that I am using currently.  I will be talking with him about them and seeking his opinion on whether he believes any of them will work well enough in place of the current products.  I have also formulated a list of questions about my conditions and the possible treatment options.  What we're doing now isn't sustainable financially, and I'm looking for what other possibilities there are that we can manage.  I would so appreciate your prayers on this front.

Thank you for your continued faithfulness in praying for us.  It means a great deal.

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Clarity in presenting questions to my doctor tomorrow, and helpful & definitive answers.

~ Safety on the crazy I-5 corridor and that we can get there on time.  Last time it was a zoo.

~ That this verse will play out in my life.

40 Days of Prayer - Day 37

And they gathered [manna] every morning.

Exodus 16:21

When did God provide the manna for the Israelites?  Every morning.  When did they need it? Every morning.  Hmmmm.

In the midst of life, I'm often thinking ahead to what our needs will be.  I'm challenged by this verse that depicted the life of the Israelites for YEARS.  Morning by morning, He provided for them.  Do I trust Him morning by morning, day by day, or am I thinking too far ahead?  I think the "too far ahead" bit is often where I sit.  So, I have work to do.  :-)

Not really any news today, either.  I made it through my shift at work, for which I'm grateful, and had a good time at the Cascade Cookoff listening to the band.  

I'm looking forward to Monday and my doctor's appointment and hopefully some more light shed on treatment options.

Today's Prayer Requests: (Same as yesterday!)

~ Healing for Daniel and Sarah

~ Housing solution

~ Effective doctor's appointment on Monday, with clear communication on my part.

~ Vehicle for Dale

 

Thanks for praying! 

 

A few shots from the Cookoff today.

The band on the trailer/stage.

Jessie and Maggie

Part of the band on the trailer/stage  :-)

Isn't she beautiful?!

40 Days of Prayer - Day 36

 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High
shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
 I will say of the LORD,
He is my refuge and my fortress:
my God; in Him will I trust.
Psalm 91:1-2

The secret place of the most High.  "He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty."  I'm sitting here wondering what that secret place is.  I like the idea of abiding under His shadow.  :-)  Another translation translates "secret place" as "shelter."  I way like "secret place" better.  It has an intimacy to it that "shelter" doesn't.  Any commentary?  This Psalm is so awesome.  All of it.

There's really nothing new to report today for me.  Just plugging along and continuing to gather information to take with me for conversation and questions with my doctor on Monday.  Still doing pretty well with my stomach most of the time and my back is still up and down.  /\../\../\../\.......  :-)

Daniel, Sarah and Xander were here for the evening and it was good to see them.  They are moving slowly and are so very tired.  When Daniel returns to work late next week (hopefully), it will probably be light duty only.  The recovery is harder and taking longer than they anticipated.  We would certainly appreciate continued prayer for them.

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Healing for Daniel and Sarah

~ Housing solution

~ Effective doctor's appointment on Monday, with clear communication on my part.

~ Vehicle for Dale

Thank you for praying!

40 Days of Prayer - Day 35

 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,

the Father of mercies and God of all comfort,
who comforts us in all our affliction

so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction

with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.
For just as the sufferings of Christ are ours in abundance,

so also our comfort is abundant through Christ.
2 Corinthians 1:3-5

I love this passage.  Run-on sentence and all.  :-)  It has been borne out in my life through the years.  The hard stuff I've gone through, without fail, has been used of the Lord as a means to comfort others with the comfort He gave me through all of it.  I trust that this period of time is also a part of "in all my affliction" just as the rest has been and that it will be used similarly.  He IS the God of ALL comfort.  Truly.

I feel as if there is some progress going on in my body.  Improvements are not totally consistent.  There're still ups and downs, but I think there is some forward progress happening.  My digestion is better, for the most part.  I'm still having difficult bouts, but less frequently.  The med I'm using for adrenal support is evening out and I've been able to ease up to almost a full dose without  problem.  So that is also good.  I hope to make some progress on probiotic and protein use next week.  Weight is still up and down, but isn't as low as it got.  Patience is the by-word here.  :-)

We would appreciate continued prayer for Daniel.  At his doctor's recommendation, he won't be returning to work until late next week.  In the midst of the medical stuff, they also have to deal with the insurance companies.  Not an unstressful thing in the midst of hurting.  Prayer for healing for him, and a path through the insurance forest would be greatly appreciated.

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Daniel's healing and navigation of the insurance forest.

~ Housing solution for us

~ Vehicle for Dale

Thank you for praying with and for us.  You are precious to us.

40 Days of Prayer - Day 34

Heal me, O LORD, and I will be healed;

Save me and I will be saved,

For You are my praise.

Jeremiah 17:14

Healing is on my mind tonight.  Not so much for me as for my kids.

There is good news about Jessie.  She is doing much better having found a key supplement that is having immediate positive effect.  Praise Jesus!

Daniel is suffering from back injuries sustained in the crash of last weekend.  He is unable to be up for any length of time and can't work full days.  He is seeing a chiropractor and massage therapist, but is still in quite a bit of pain.  We would so appreciate your prayers for healing for him.  Whether outright, or from appropriate treatment that is effective.  Sarah is doing okay.  Just still very tired.  Cooking is one of the hard things right now.  I've done what I've been able to, but if anyone else locally is wanting to help, meals would be great.  You can contact me for details.  debbie.macinnis (@) ymail.com.

Today I spent most of the day gathering information on probiotics, enzymes, protein supplements and endocrine support.  There is so much out there, it's rather overwhelming.  I kinda feel like my mind is ready to explode.  I will be seeing my doctor on Monday morning instead of tomorrow, so I have a little more time to formulate my questions and gather information.  I'd still appreciate prayer in this regard.

I think that's it for today.  Thanks for praying.  So much.

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Daniel's healing

~ Effective doctor's appointment on Monday

~ Housing

40 Days of Prayer - Day 33

"I love You, O LORD, my strength.

The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer,

My God, my rock, in whom I take refuge;

My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
I call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised,

 As for God, His way is blameless;

The word of the LORD is tried;

He is a shield to all who take refuge in Him.
For who is God, but the LORD?

And who is a rock, except our God,
The God who girds me with strength

And makes my way blameless?
He makes my feet like hinds' feet,

And sets me upon my high places.
He trains my hands for battle,

So that my arms can bend a bow of bronze.
You have also given me the shield of Your salvation,

And Your right hand upholds me;

And Your gentleness makes me great.

From Psalm 18

He is my Rock.  My fortress, my stronghold and shield.    He's my Equipper. My strength, my deliverer and salvation.  Aren't those amazing things?

Some I can see, I can visualize.  Pictures of places of refuge in times of battle run through my head.  Impenetrable fortresses, strongholds.  A shield about me as the enemy advances.

And then the things I can't see or touch, but which are part of the battle, nonetheless.  Equipping and training for battle.  Strength.  Deliverance from the enemy.  Salvation from destruction.

He is an awesome God, so intimately acquainted with everything about me and all that I need.  Equipping and enabling me to fight the battles that come. There's a lot of comfort in this Psalm.

The Lord gave me the ability to work the two hours this morning that had been requested of me.  I am thankful for that.  Thank you for your prayers in that regard.

In the search for the best treatment & supplement options, a book came into my hands today that may be of some help.  I will be talking with my doctor on Thursday about the new information I'm trying to process.  I'd appreciate prayer on that.

And an update on Dale.....his job is going well.  He is nearing the end of his training period and has driven clients to appointments ranging from Vancouver in the south to Puyallup in the north.  It appears that it is a good fit in most areas.  That is a blessing.  He is still in need of a car.  Or truck.  Something.  :-)

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Clarity on treatment options, supplements, meds, etc. :-)

~ Perseverance

~ Housing solution

~ Jessie's health concerns (from a previous post)

~ Vehicle for Dale

Thank you for praying.  We are grateful!

40 Days of Prayer - Day 32

 After you have suffered for a little while,

the God of all grace,

who called you to His eternal glory in Christ,

will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen and establish you.
To Him be dominion forever and ever. Amen.

1Peter 5:11

"....notice how this blessing of being “established in the faith” is gained. The apostle’s words point us to suffering as the means employed—“After you have suffered for a little while.” It is of no use to hope that we shall be well rooted if no rough winds pass over us. Those old gnarlings on the root of the oak tree, and those strange twistings of the branches, all tell of the many storms that have swept over it, and they are also indicators of the depth into which the roots have forced their way. So the Christian is made strong, and firmly rooted, by all the trials and storms of life. Shrink not then from the tempestuous winds of trial, but take comfort, believing that by their rough discipline, God is fulfilling this benediction to you." 

Charles H. Spurgeon

This was in my devotional reading this morning.  I love it.  The One who seeks to establish me sends those things, those tempests and rough winds, to pass over me to make me strong.  No buffeting, no strength.  No storms, no depth of roots.  Very cool.  I'm so glad for the Word that speaks to me, and for saints like Spurgeon -- who have been tried and have come forth as gold -- who pen such beautiful things.

Today I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out the best buys on supplements and meds that I need to be taking.  I plan to take the information with me when I see my doctor this week and talk to him about the options.  This is part of determining what is most important and where to put the money we have, and in what order.

I've been asked if I can work tomorrow for a few hours in the morning.  It is the only shift the postmaster couldn't cover of the days I had committed to work this week, but on which I had to renege.  I'd like to be able to do that, and would appreciate prayer that I wake up able to work.  It has been an unpredictable couple of days in that regard, back- and stomach-wise.

Thanks for praying with us.  We are so grateful.  So many of these requests are the same day after day now.  It has come down to some very specific needs, so I will continue to post these critical things.

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Housing solution.

~ Ability to work tomorrow.

~ Continued clarity on treatment options, supplements, meds, etc.

~ Provision.

40 Days of Prayer - Day 31

The LORD is good to all,

And His mercies are over all His works.

Psalm 145:9  

 

" 'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops?

What if Your healing comes through tears?

What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near?

What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?"

From "Blessings" by Laura Story

A dear friend sent me a link to the song "Blessings" today.  Trials being "mercies in disguise" is truth, as far as I'm concerned.  Trials, tribulations, are always sign posts to point me to Jesus.  Always.  Sometimes I miss the first glimpse, though.  I forget and want to complain.  Or I get discouraged.  This song is a good one.  It kinda reminds me of Romans 5 and exulting in tribulations for a whole list of good reasons.

So, tonight I am reminding myself that hard times are His mercies in disguise.  :-)

Not much to report.  Kind of an up and down day.....trying a new probiotic and it doesn't seem to be a good fit, if my stomach and back are any indication!

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ A housing solution and keeping my focus on the Lord and not on all that will have to be done in order to move.  Wherever and whenever that is.

~ Continued figuring out of meds and supplements that will work for me in building up my intestinal and endocrine health.

~ Rejoicing in trials and not getting discouraged on difficult days.

Thanks again for your faithfulness in praying.  I am so very grateful.

40 Days of Prayer - Day 30

"Bless the LORD, O my soul,

And forget none of His benefits."

Psalm 103:2 

"It is a delightful and profitable occupation to mark the hand of God in the lives of ancient saints, but would it not be even more interesting and profitable for us to remark the hand of God in our own lives? Ought we not to look upon our own history as being at least as full of God, as full of his goodness and of his truth, as much a proof of his faithfulness and veracity, as the lives of any of the saints who have gone before?"  C.H. Spurgeon

This was in my devotional reading this morning, and it delighted me.  Yes.  We ought.  :-)  I'm big on this, as I've mentioned before.  Going back through the blessings, the answers, keeping track of His deliverances, His miracles.  Just like David did.  "Forget none of His benefits."  None.  Remember them all.

So, today I worked my half-day shift at the P.O. and made it through.  And did well.  That is a tremendous blessing.  I am so grateful.  If I can at least keep up with Saturdays, it will be a relief.

I am still holding or gaining a little in the weight department.  I'm still able to eat well.  That in and of itself is such an amazing blessing.  Not to feel nauseated most of the time is an incredible thing.  I think I'm doing better with the new med.  Low and slow seems to be working.  That's about it....There isn't really anything else to report. :-)

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Still asking for a solution to our housing situation.  God knows the best way to solve it.  We're waiting for Him to let us know what that is.  It seems best to us to deal with it during the summer while it's not raining.  As much.  :-)

~ Continued weight gain.  I'm trying some new things that I hope will help in this area.

~ I know I keep asking this, but it is of great concern to me.  I desire continued clarity on treatment options (supplements, meds, etc.), as in what is of most importance and where to put the money we have, and in what order.

Thanks again for praying!

40 Days of Prayer - Day 29

Beloved, I pray that in all respects you may prosper

and be in good health, just as your soul prospers.

3 John 1:2

I love this verse.  It lets me know that God is concerned about all aspects of my life.  And that the earthy stuff is apparently important, because He compares it with the prosperity of my soul.  I like that.  Especially when I, or a loved one, is in the midst of difficulties, health or otherwise.

Today has been pretty good again.  Still holding my weight, stomach still quiet, still able to eat pretty well, and I was able to cook for band rehearsal tonight.  That's a blessing.  Because I love to cook for all these precious people.  :-)

I am "starting low and going slow" with this new med (DHEA for adrenal support), and today was a little better than yesterday. Patience is a key element here.  This healing is going to take time.  Maybe a lot of time.  I have been so intent on getting well fast so I can keep up with my job, that I kinda lost sight of the patience thing.  The deal with self-sufficiency, and my battle with it, needs to be swallowed up in HIS sufficiency.  It is one of the big lessons in this time of infirmity.  Self-sufficiency is a family trait in my family-of-origin.  A negative trait.  The "I can do it myself and pull myself up by my own bootstraps" stuff.  It's not a godly thing and it's been a long struggle to be rid of it.  Hopefully this will be the death knell of it in my life.

 On another front, and in keeping with the 3 John verse, my daughter Jessie is also dealing with some unexplained health concerns and we would covet your prayers for the ability to determine what the causes are.  I pray that in all respects she may prosper and be in good health, even as her soul prospers.

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Jessie's health concerns

~ The manifestation of the Spirit's fruit of patience in my life

~ I think the thing that is still most often at the front of my mind is clarity on treatment options.  As in what is most important and where to put the money we have, and in what order.

Thank you again and again for praying.

40 Days of Prayer - Day 28

For You, O LORD, have made me glad by what You have done,

I will sing for joy at the works of Your hands.

Psalm 92:4

On the glorious splendor of Your majesty

And on Your wonderful works, I will meditate.

 Psalm 145:5 

I'm thinking about God's works tonight.  Both in the life of my friend Crystal, who I mentioned last night, and in my own life.  I have been very tired today, but my heart is peaceful.  As I read about meditating on the wonderful works of God, it makes me want to do that.  Just sit and reflect on how awesome He is.  Always having our good in mind.  Always.  The hard stuff is part of His love for us.  A place for Him to show off His power.  His wonderful works.  So, I am living in both these verses tonight, being glad at what He has done and singing for joy at the work of His hands, and quietly meditating on all of it and the glorious splendor of His majesty.  How amazing that the God of the universe cares infinitely about me.  About my struggles.  About my joys.  And is using it all to make me more like Jesus and getting me ready for His kingdom.  I am His beloved child.  That is a wonderful work.  :-)

Today I started a new med and have ranged from feeling a little hyper inside, to just so very tired.  Not sure what's going on there, but as the days go by I think things will be made clear.  I was able to eat well today and my stomach has remained pretty quiet.  I have gained and held 3 pounds over this past week.  Yay!  I'm getting into the rhythm of what I need to drink, take (meds/supplements) and eat throughout the days.  There are so many things that have to be drunk, taken or eaten "away" from the others, so it takes a little planning.  I'm getting there!

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Continued prayer on solving our living situation needs.

~ Work issues for me are still stressful.  I need to be able to leave all that with the Lord and not dwell on what I can't do and how I can't help right now.  These are lessons in recognizing that I am not sufficient.  He is.

Thank you for your faithful prayers.  You are amazing.  Each of you.

40 Days of Prayer - Day 27

Let everything that has breath praise the LORD.

Praise the LORD!

Psalm 150:6

I am rejoicing this day because my friend, Crystal Puckett, who I've known since she was 9 or so, has had a successful kidney transplant after 11 long months of dialysis.  Her brother, Jonny, donated one of his kidneys and the surgery took place yesterday.  Her blood is the cleanest it's been since her renal failure after the birth of her sweet daughter last year.  She and Jessie were close friends during our years in Angels Camp, California, and we've been praying for her through this time of waiting.  Such happy news today.  I am praising the Lord with them!  This is a link to her/their story.

This is now day three of pretty good stomach function.  Yay!  Maggie and I went to Seattle again today -- that's another story! -- for another round of IVs, and I was able to ask my questions and get good answers.  I am SO grateful for this doctor.  So grateful.  I start on a new med tomorrow that we hope will help my adrenal function.  The good things that can come of this are increased energy and better digestion.  I expect it to be an up and down road, but I am encouraged by the progress that has been made in the past week with the enzymes & HCl already.  Being able to eat is a good thing.  :-)

Thank you so much for praying.  I am rejoicing in His answers!

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Smooth transition with this new med.

~ Continued progress on digestive health, accompanied by weight gain.

~ This one again: Clarity for me on treatment options.  As in what is most important.  A triage kind of thing.  Where to put the money we have, and in what order.

~ Provision.

40 Days of Prayer - Day 26

"The light is pleasant, and it is good for the eyes to see the sun."

Ecclesiastes 11:7

 

I agree, entirely!  And it was good to see the sun today, and to walk around in the sunshine and enjoy the light.  At heart, I'm a summer gal, and I love storing up the BTUs for the gray days!

 

Today was a good day.  I'm not altogether certain why, but it may be due to an increase in pancreatic enzymes and HCl that I'm taking to aid digestion.  No major stomach issues today, and my back was okay most of the day.  A real gift.

 

Tomorrow I go to see my ND again for another IV and more conversation about treatment.  I actually look forward to it.  The trepidation I have felt when seeing other doctors is entirely absent, and that is amazing.  He is truly an answer to all our prayers.  And I don't mind the drive either, when everything else is so positive.  And Maggie is a wonderful driving companion. Good girl time.  :-)

 

Thank you, each one, for praying for us.  We are so grateful.

Today's Prayer Requests:

~ Continued light to be shone on my endocrine issues, as well as the best treatments and order in which they should be administered.

~ Continued prayer for our housing situation.

~ Continued prayer for provision this month before Dale starts getting full paychecks, which will be at the end of the month.

~ A car for Dale.