"Come with Me to a quiet place,
........and rest."
Mark 6:31
"Your relationship with the Lord should never be legalistic.
It should be because you want to be with Him,
because you need to be with Him."
Kay Arthur
Yesterday I read the above quotation by Kay Arthur. For those of you who don't know who she is, she has been writing and teaching inductive Bible Studies for decades. Her earthly platform has been Precept Ministries. I took and taught Precept courses in the 80's and 90's, and much of my spiritual foundation was formed through those studies. Her life is an example of the passion of loving Jesus, and reveling in the fact that He loves her, even her, after all she has done that is not glorifying to Him. I want that in my life, too. Remembering what it cost Him to save me, even me, and loving Him, wanting to be with Him, needing Him so.
Then today I came across the Mark passage in a most unlikely place. We are on the hunt for a different vehicle, and I was at a local auto dealer checking out a rig. On the wall of the dealership office was a tapestry with Mark 6:31 on it. I had actually yearned for a passage that expressed the heart of Jesus toward me, inviting me to just be with Him because He wants to be with me -- kind of like the basis on which Kay's quotation was made from the human side of the relationship -- and here it was, totally unexpectedly.
In the midst of the ongoing search for understanding what my body is doing and not doing, I had a good phone appointment with my doctor, Matt, on Monday. We went over the DNA stool test results, and even delved a little into the genetic testing results that he has started to wade through. There is SO much.
As I understand it -- and my understanding is limited at best -- I have thyroid issues; I need to boost my amino acid intake to help with protein issues and hopefully weight gain; my immune response is low; I continue to have an imbalance in good/bad intestinal bacteria and there is yeast present, both of which contribute to my intestinal health and digestive issues (dysbiosis); I have some MTHFR mutations, the bottom line of which means that I have problems with processing B vitamins and with detoxing, among other things. (It is very confusing to me and I don't really have a handle on it yet. HERE is an article that simplifies the MTHFR information and helped it make some sense to me.)
I am on a treatment plan that addresses all of the above issues and am taking meds and supplements for the thyroid problems, the amino acid issues, several things that are working to help support my immune response, more and different meds/supplements to help with gut dysbiosis represented by the bacteria and yeast imbalances, and then a couple of things to help with the results of the MTHFR mutations.
It's yet a long haul. I am still very much up and down in how I feel, often in the same day. :-) Nonetheless, God never changes and without Him I can do nothing anyway, the learning of which is something I value greatly in the midst of this time in my life.
In talking with a friend not too long ago, I expressed that I desire to be well, so much. At the same time, I am not kicking against where I am and am content to be here because it is where God has me. And I don't want to be anywhere He doesn't want me. I know there are those who may say that God doesn't want me sick. And perhaps that is true, but the fact is that I am. And if I'm not accepting of that and thanking Him for it, I am not in the right place. I think of Amy Carmichael who was sick a long time. Her testimony has been an encouragement to so many people through the decades, and God has been glorified through it. That's what I want, as well, to glorify Him no matter my condition in this life. Whether I am ill or well, hurting or not, I want His glory to be the focus, and then trust Him for me.
I think what we'd appreciate prayer for most at this point is that God will give Matt the supernatural ability to discern what my test results actually mean and the best course to treat what he finds. The other thing is that with introducing so many new treatment elements, it's hard to discern those to which I might be reacting or, conversely, those which are doing good. And my responses to food and supplements aren't necessarily consistent anyway, so it makes it doubly hard in some ways.
Thanks so much for praying with us. We appreciate you greatly, each one. Bless you.
